Chloe. What a loyal awesome dog. She died unexpectedly around 1 am in her sleep. She was 7. She had had a tough year with a back injury and we’d thought she was recovered. Guess she had other plans. Really appreciate both the carefree time with her in the earlier years and also the few extra months we had with her at the end. Always in our hearts.
July 10th, 2013
As you know most likely our dog died this week. Here is more about the experience. I feel deeply inspired by what’s happening.
She died unexpectedly around 1 am Tuesday morning. My son woke me up when he found her as he was going to bed. We woke the rest of the family and cried over her body. They all went to sleep and I had several hours alone with her body. I wasn’t ready to leave her side. It was heart wrenching and healing at the same time. Hugging her body and feeling her warmth. And then feeling the warmth leave her body over the hours. It was the most intimate experience I’ve had with death, and with love.
When we called the next morning for the cremation person to get her body (we’d decided against burying), I was ready. Her body was cold and it was time. I can’t believe how much time I needed with her body.
And I wonder about how we shortchange that process with other passings. I can feel myself embracing the love while also feeling the loss. It’s been incredibly intense but also incredibly healthy. No heart scar tissue, no shirking away. Finding better feeling thoughts and stories throughout the process. Getting support from friends. Taking a few days off of client work with no guilt. It’s amazing what’s possible when I’m not carrying a heavy load from the past. Thanks to EFT, and family constellations and homeopathy, I’m experiencing this in a very different way than other losses. I know this is long and I hope it doesn’t trigger anyone in their grief. Felt important to me to share with friends. Thanks for reading.